这就是生活

豆瓣:Rocket Science

昨夜偶尔观看了一部影片《Rocket Science》,又译作《一飞冲天》,感触颇深。影片是一部美国成长片,探讨的是青少年成长中的诱惑、困顿、爱情和希望。主人公父母离异,自身又有口吃缺陷,因为懵懂的初恋,而渴望突破自身的限制;当初恋被证明是一个骗局,他仍然保持着希望一飞冲天的憧憬,并为之努力。而最后的结局却是他并未能战胜自身的生理缺陷,但却重新思考生活是什么。而这正是影片的出彩之处,这不是又一个战胜自身的成功故事,丝毫不落俗套,而是纯粹的青春故事,带着淡淡的青涩和酸楚,因为这就是生活。

我们每个人其实都有这样一段懵懂的时期:心智尚未成熟,带着特有的青春期迷茫,不知道未来是什么,不知道生活的意义何在,但有时候又渴望爱情,甚至像影片主人公一样希望“一飞冲天”式的成功。现在回过头来看自己,其实应该是在初中有过类似的一段时期,但是在高中以后就开始忙于高考,目标明确。高中时自然也曾树立过远大的目标,却并未想像自己将来要过怎样的生活,但现在想想,在未接触社会之前这些憧憬总是多少有些王子公主般的梦幻色彩。于是工作了大概6年后,经济危机的大时代背景下,工作变迁和生存状态让我碰到了前所未有的低潮,很长一段时间,我都在重新思考什么是生活?自然有时候也有“一飞冲天”的幻想。不知道这是不是三十岁前的一段特有的迷茫期。

但后来的实践发现,我们其实是受过成功教育和应试的受害者。不管是明规则还是潜规则,我们从小就被教育要有“远大的理想”,要做人上人;大时代在潜意识里边被灌输要做“明星式”的成功,有钱且光鲜,有房有车。最终的结果是,我们忘记了倾听自己的声音,忘记了问问自己想过怎样的生活,想做一个什么样的人。如果说我们曾经有那么一丝的自我意识,那么我们也在你追我赶的社会利益竞争当中不断丧失自我。这是我们这一代的悲剧。其实生活就是生活,生活本身很简单,也许真的你只要“好好活”,那就是有意义的。不要考虑太多未来,有个大致的方向也许就够了。一步一步脚踏实地做当下的事情,慢慢的去接近梦想。

所以对我来说,生活的意义在于:通过做好今天的事,明天的自己比今天的自己更优秀,更充实;慢慢捡起以前自己内心所放弃的东西,比如自己对文字的热爱和运用;放慢脚步后可以在阳光下冲一杯热咖啡,写一篇自己很有心得的评论。其实这就是生活,而且这样的生活也挺好的。

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Got a new desktop computer

After my last purchase of a DIY computer 5 years ago, I finally
orderred a new one from Dell. It spends my around 3900 RMB to get
the new PC which is quite small enough and without mointor. So it’s
really not cheap but it is worth for the dimension in 5in*5in. I
can put it on my desk easily without occupying too much space.

The purchase experience from DELL is actually not well. The
picture of PCs on DELL’s website are always beautiful and the style
of website is pretty fresh. It delights you to raise an order if
you really have some needs on PC or laptops. Once you made the
decision on any type of machine, you have to make a toll free call
to the DELL representative telling them your PC type. They will
raise an order for you. Everything goes well at this time except
for you have to pay in advance before they raising the order. Once
the order was raisen, you can look up your order status on DELL’s
website by providing your order number and customer ID.

Now you will feel frustrated totally since the status of the
order was always ‘in producing ‘. Normally it’s not true if the
representative tells you that your PC will be made and arrived to
you within 7 working days. You have to wait wait and wait until you
finally noticed DELL is cheating you and it has never started to
assembly your PC yet. After 2 weeks waiting, I was totally
frustrated and lost my patient to wait. So I write an email to my
representative to threat I will rollback the order and get my money
back. It was interesting that the PC was made within one day after
I sending the email. I also get the feedback from the
representative to say sorry.

My case is not unique, actually it’s quite normal, all over the
world. You can find huge complaints to DELL for its delay of PC
manufacture and  delivery. And complaint to your
representative looks a good idea if you sufferred any delay from
DELL.

Anyway the PC has 4G memory running Windows 7. It is faster than
my old one. Will try to run some java program later…

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